won't know if i don't try.

before i spoke with my psychologist today, i had ics and he assisted in applying to a housing authority in boston. he helped me scan the application and i already toured the apartment during my last trip to boston. so HOPEFULLY my application won't take too long to come up on the waiting list.
when my psychologist and i met virtually (because of the weather) today, i told her my frustrations of how my mom has NEVER shown ANY interest in me working a job. i mentioned how she tells me about my brother working happily and excitedly all the time and she seems happy talking about my sister working when she does. my psychologist seemed a little surprised because i told her my mom isn't encouraging of me when i tell her about my jobs. i'm not letting that shit stop me. she doesn't seem to show interest in ANYTHING i do unless it's going to courage kenny. i'm guessing it's because she expects as much out of me as SHE personally is capable of. i don't have time for unencouraging bums because they have the goal of dragging ME down to their level just because they can't handle seeing someone with related situations ACTUALLY doing something other than depending on social security because other people might think she's insignificant and not worth dealing with because not even she cares about herself to do more for herself.
i have a job interview tomorrow, the job is a different job field than i'm accustomed to but it came up on indeed and i have all the qualifications- along with feeling capable enough to do everything the job requires. my job coach didn't have any objections to it when i told her about it last week either. i'll just see if they're impressed enough with me to think i can do the job. it's worth a shot. if they weren't interested in possibly hiring me- THEY WOULD'VE NEVER BOTHERED TO MOVE ONTO THE NEXT STAGE IN HIRING (PHONE INTERVIEW)! so i DO have a shot (for anyone laughing at my optimism.. i don't see YOU actually working any damn careers).